Products I Use To Contour!| Kirafelicialindxn

Hi guys so I haven't been blogging a lot as you will know due to a few very important issues i'm currently going through but I decided I will do a quick post for you today. So as you may or may not know, contouring is my favourite part of doing my make up, so I'd like to share with you the products and tools I use to contour.

So the first product I'm going to start with is the NYC Colour Wheel Translucent Highlighter. I'm not really a big fan of this high lighter, I have some sat on my shelf in their box waiting to be used, I just haven't got round to it yet but I use this product with my MUA F7 Small Fan Brush. I bought my high lighter from Superdrug and you can get the brush on the MUA website.

So my favourite part is applying bronzer and the bronzer I use is the W7 Honolulu Bronzer, I love this bronzer, it is an absolute dupe of the Benefit Hoola Bronzer, I've used the Benefit bronzer and considering the price difference I am never going back. The brush I use to apply this is my Real Techniques Contour Brush. I've talked about these brushes loads but I bought my bronzer off Amazon and My brush came in the Core Collection set and I bought that from Superdrug.

So that's it for today guys, hopefully I will be able to get back into blogging everyday and I will give you an update on everything soon, so until then keep missing my posts and I'll be back soon.

Kira xx

My Top Under £5 products!| Kirafelicialindxn

Hi guys so I've been thinking and a lot of people these days haven't got the money to be able to buy expensive make up so if you are like me, you will always be looking for good cheap products. Today day I'm going to share with you my top five products that I own that are under £5.

So the first item I'm going to share with you is the MUA Luxe Voluminous Felt Liner, This was in my February favourites because I love it so much. Its so easy to apply and you would think at the quality of the product it would cost a lot more than it does. This product costs only £3 and I would say its probably worth about £15.

http://www.muastore.co.uk/mua-luxe-voluminous-felt-liner

My next product I've got to share with you is the MUA Pout Prime Smoothing Lip Primer. I love this product, its perfect for me because I have such dry lips 99% of the time, I have used more expensive primers but this is far better than any of the others I've used. This product costs £3 as well.

http://www.muastore.co.uk/pout-prime 

My third product is the MUA Lash Boom Mascara. I use this everyday and like I said in my favourites post, I have never used a mascara so good, it has such a perfect wand shape and this product only costs £3 as well.

http://www.muastore.co.uk/lash-boom

My fourth product is by Natural Collection and it is the Lash Length Mascara. I know I said the MUA mascara is the best but for the price of £1.99, this is also a really good mascara. I would price this at at least £5, if it were me.

http://www.boots.com/en/Natural-Collection-Lash-Length-Mascara_24319/

My final product for you guys today is the Natural Collection Cover Up Cream. I use this concealer everyday and it does it's job perfectly so in my eyes, that's a product worth buying. From Boots this product cost £1.99. 

http://www.boots.com/en/Natural-Collection-Cover-up-Cream_25835/

So guys that's it for today, I definitely think these products are all worth buying, you could buy everything in this post and only spend £12.98 and that's not even the price of a Mac lipstick.

Kira xx

February Favourites| Kirafelicialindxn

Hi guys so today I'm going to share with you my favourite products of February, I really struggled with this month, I've used so many different products this month so it was really difficult to choose some favourites. I know I've talked about some of these products before so I wont go into too much detail on them.

Ok, so the first product on my favourites list for this month is the MUA Spring Break palette, I fell in love with this palette the first time I used it, It's really made me want to buy more MUA palettes, the eyeshadows in the palette just apply so well and they are very well pigmented, I really recommend this product especially as it is only £4.00.

Link- http://www.muastore.co.uk/spring-break-palette

This next item is also by MUA and it is the MUA Luxe Voluminous Felt Liner. I was very sceptical about this liner when I received it because of how fat the tip is but it is so easy to control how thin or fat you want your liner, it is also so much easier to do winged eyeliner with this as well. This item cost me £3.00.

Link- http://www.muastore.co.uk/mua-luxe-voluminous-felt-liner

As you can see in the photo these are two different brushes from two different brands so I will talk about them one at a time.

The first brush is the Real Techniques Buffing brush, I've used this brush everyday since I bought it. This brush came in a set of 4 which I will link below but I really love this brush, its very soft and I haven't had any bristles fall out so I think this is a great brush. You cannot buy this brush separately as far as I know but I'd definitely say the Core set is worth buying anyway, I use all the brushes and they cost £21.99 from Boots.

Link- http://www.boots.com/en/Real-Techniques-Core-Collection-1403_1252038/ 

The second brush is the MUA F7 Small Fan Brush and I mainly love this brush because of how soft it is, I think it one of the best fan brushes I've ever used. I use this everyday and I haven't had a bristle fall out so I think thats a good sign. This brush cost me £1.95 so at that price, it is definitely worth buying.

Link- http://www.muastore.co.uk/f7-small-fan-brush

My next product is another MUA product and it is the MUA Lash Boom Mascara. I think I've talked about this before but it is probably the best drugstore mascara I've ever used. It's the perfect brush shape and I just really love it. This cost me £3.00 and I think this is a product everyone should have!

Link- http://www.muastore.co.uk/lash-boom

My final favourite I didn't photograph because I've talked about it so many times before and that is the Rimmel Lasting Finish Colour Rush in the colour Viva Violet. Like I've said before, I love this product, it is the perfect colour for me and I will continue to use it until it is empty. This item costs £5.99 and I definitely think you should try it and I hope you can love it as much as I do.

Link- http://uk.rimmellondon.com/products/lips/lasting-finish-colour-rush-balm

Okay guys, so that's it for today, I'll be back tomorrow with another post and I hope you are all excited to see it. Keep up with the comments, I'm loving all your feedback so much and I also really appreciate all my followers on Bloglovin.

Favourite Affordable Lip Product!

Hi guys so today I'm going to share with you my favourite affordable lipsticks, so basically lipsticks you can afford on a budget that I personally love. Sorry to those of you that have been waiting for my post all day, I've been busy today and haven't had a chance to blog for you but here is the post...

My first two favourite lipsticks are by Gosh and they are in the colours Cappuccino and Innocent. I usually wear these colours when I'm going for a simple make up look but the quality of the lipsticks overall are amazing. From Superdrug these lipsticks cost £6.99 each and I really recommend them, also the black packaging is amazing and I love that the actually stick has 'GOSH' engraved into it.

My next favourite lipstick is by Maybelline and it's the Super Stay 24 Colour and mine is in the colour Eternal Sunset. I've mentioned this lipstick before as it used to be my everyday lipstick but as all you beauty enthusiasts will of experienced, I go through faces of brands,colours, styles. I've tried other colours in this make and I think they are all amazing and I definitely want to pick up more of these lipstick/glosses. When I think of lipglosses, I think of those lumpy, glittery ones that you used to get on the front of a magazine when you were a young girl but This is not, once it is on your lips it goes matte and then you can either leave it like that, like I do or apply the balm on the other end which gives it a glossy effect. Which is why whenever I talk about this product, I class it as a lipstick. This product costs £8.99 from most drugstores like Boots or Superdrug.

My next product is by Rimmel, This is a lip pen and it's the Lasting Finish Colour Rush, I own two, one in the colour Viva Violet, which is the one I'm favoriting for this post and the other one I have is in the colour Keep Mauving. I think these lip pens are so good, they apply so easily and last all day, I apply mine and then put my Stay Matte powder over the top to give it a matte finish but I do that with all my lip products because I'm not a massive fan of glossy lips. This product costs £5.99.

My final lip product is also by Maybelline and its the Baby Lips Lip Balm, I own two, a coloured one, which I don't really use but I also have the plain lip balm which I am constantly applying too my lips when I'm in bed. I get really dry and chapped lips so I've always got a lip balm at hand but this one is a definite favourite, this is not very expensive as it cost me £2.99, you can most likely buy this anywhere that sells Maybelline products.

So that's it for today guys, It is very unlikely that I will be blogging over the weekend but you can keep up with what I'm doing by following me on my Instagram @kirafelicialindxn and I will be back with another post on Monday, make sure to keep leaving me comments, I always get excited when I see a comment on a post and it really keeps me enthusiastic about posting.

Kira xx

Top 5 Budget Beauty Buys!

Hi guys so today I'm going to be telling you about the Top 5 products that you can easily afford if your on a budget. All these products are drugstore items because as you will know by now, I dont tend to really use high end products, I'm more into finding good cheap products and showing that you don't need a £50 foundation that will last you like a month. So lets get started...

For some reason I didn't photograph these first two items. The first one is the W7 Prime Magic Camera Ready Primer. Now I've talked about this item before and I think I said I couldn't really comment on the quality of this product because I'd never used a primer before but the other day I was being really lazy and didn't apply primer and I noticed a massive difference. My foundation was flaky, nothing was going on right, my skin felt really dry and I ended up looking worse than when I started. So I'd say for £6.95 this is a primer worth getting.

Link- http://www.w7cosmetics.co.uk/product/camera-ready/

The next item I didn't photograph seperatley is the Natural Collection Bronzer, I can't actually find the bronzer I have on the Boots website, Mines a loose powder where as the only one I can find is a pressed powder but the price of this bronzer was £1.99. This is such a good bronzer, I said in a post that I'm not using it at the moment because I see it as a summer bronzer, which I do because it has a shimmer too it but that's the only reason I am not using it. I think all the Natural Collection products are brillant for the price so I really recommend that you go into Boots and have a browse at the stuff.

Link- http://www.boots.com/en/Natural-Collection-Suntint-Bronzing-Powder_24382/

This item has been like God to me since I bought it a few weeks ago, I love it so much and it is the Barry M Brow Kit, I've talked about this a few times in all different posts and I really think this should be on your shopping list, Its such a good kit and it lasts a long time as well, the only fault I'd say is that the brow jel is tinted so you end up with really dark brows but I don't use the jel and my eyebrows still stay in place right through till the next day with no colour run or anything. This product costs £5.99 and compared to the high end brow kits I'd say this is really worth buying.

Link- http://www.boots.com/en/Barry-M-Brow-Kit-4-5g_1450686/

Mascara for me isn't really a product that I buy the same one every time, I like to try out different ones. This is a Natural Collection mascara and I'd say this is great if you like just a thin coat of mascara, you can still layer it if you want but this is really good because it doesn't clump and its also very easy to use on the lower lash line. This product is £1.99 and for a basic mascara I'd say its worth it.

Link- http://www.boots.com/en/Natural-Collection-Lash-Care-Mascara_24312/

My final item is the W7 Eyeshadow Palettes, the one photographed here is the In The Nude palette and to me they are very much like the Urban Decay Naked palettes, they're really well pigmented and I do really recommend these palettes as I use them every day and I think they are amazing.

The price really depends on where you buy from, in Peacocks they are £7.99 and on amazon they are around £6, however on the W7 website they are £9.99, which compared to the Naked palettes which are £35, I think that's a great price.

Link- http://www.w7cosmetics.co.uk/eyes/eye-shadow/palettes/

So guys that's it for today, I hope you enjoyed this post and make sure to go hunt for these brilliant items. Look out for my next post and be sure to leave me some comments.

Kira xx

MUA Haul!

Hi guys so today I'm going to be doing a haul for you! The other day I ordered some bits from MUA and they came today. They came so quick which I'm super happy about. As you may be wondering, no I'm not meant to be blogging today but I've decided that I'm going to try and start blogging a lot more because I find my self wanting to blog pretty much everyday ha! Ok, so lets get started with the haul...

So the first thing I bought was MUA's new Spring Break Eyeshadow Palette. I haven't tried this yet but I can see myself using it a lot during spring because it has some nice pale colours and some are matte and some are shimmery. This item cost me £4.00, which I think is really good for a palette.

Link- http://www.muastore.co.uk/spring-break-palette

The next item I bought was the Lash Boom Mascara. I actually used this today and I loved it! The brush is the perfect shape for coating all your lashes, even those small ones in the corners of your eye.

This item was £3.00 and in my opinion, this item is worth so much more, especially as I know Rimmel do a similar one for around £6.00 (depending on where you buy from.)

Link- http://www.muastore.co.uk/lash-boom

This next item is the MUA Luxe Voluminous Felt Liner. I also used this today and if you like fat liner then this is perfect for you. It could be because I've never used a felt liner before really but I ended up with eye liner the thickness of nearly my whole eyelid. It's a good coverage though so I still say it is a good product and this cost me £3.00.

Link- http://www.muastore.co.uk/mua-luxe-voluminous-felt-liner

These next three little items are the MUA £1 Nail Polish. They currently have a 3 for 2 offer on but at £1 each you can't really complain anyway. To me these nail varnishes remind me a lot of the Essie Nail Varnishes. Not only do these look pretty but they also cover really well, Today I am wearing Truffle Cream and the other two polishes I bought are in the colours Bold Blue and Pistachio Ice Cream. They have a range of colours which I think are perfect for spring and summer,

Link- http://www.muastore.co.uk/nail-polish 

These next items, when I ordered them I thought were going to be like my Rimmel colour blast lipstick pens but when they actually came I realised that they are the MUA Power Pout Lip Tints. I've never used a lip tint before so when I tried one out this morning I was really surprised that I actually really liked how it looked, As you can see I bought three of these, today I am wearing Crazy In Love and the other two are called Rendezvous and Justify. I wished they had more of a colour range because I would really like to get more of these, especially as they were only £1.00 each.

Link- http://www.muastore.co.uk/lips/lip-colour-tint

This next item, I tried today and now I am never going back. This is the Pout Prime Smoothing Lip Primer. I'd never even considered using a lip primer before, usually I would just apply some vaseline too my lips before apply make up but with this lip primer, I don't need to and it just makes my lips look so good and they feel smooth as well. This item was £3.00, which I think is amazing for the money, if it was me I'd be charging at least £5 because it is such a good item.

Link- http://www.muastore.co.uk/pout-prime

The good thing about MUA is that they also sell a range of brushes. The two brushes I picked up are the E9 Socket Blending brush and the F7 Small Fan brush. I used these both today, they are such good quality and I will definitely be buying more, maybe even the brush holder. The brushes I bought cost £1.95. Prices range depending on the type but I will link below the page to all the brushes.

Link- http://www.muastore.co.uk/brushes

Ok guys so that's it for today, I'll be back tomorrow with another post, so look out for that and I hope you enjoyed this post and make sure you check out the MUA online store and make sure you leave me a comment of what posts you'd like to see.

Kira xx

Top February Buys!

Hi guys so today I'm going to share with you a few items that I'm so glad I bought this month. I've bought alot this month but these 5 items are items that have really made a difference and helped me. I don't have photos of all the items but I will link what I can and prices.

So the first item I'm so glad I bought this month is my real techniques brush set by Sam and Nic. I've never really used brushes before but I love these brushes, I use them everyday for foundation, eyeshadow,powder and contouring and they always leave my make up looking amazing. My brush set cost me around £20. I really recommend these brushes whether you use brushes everyday or not.

U.S- https://realtechniques.com/shop-collection/core-collection

UK- http://www.boots.com/en/Real-Techniques-Core-Collection-1403_1252038/

The next item is the Barry M Brow Kit, I use this everyday now instead of a normal eyeshadow and I think it makes my eyebrows look so much better. Whenever I used eyeshadow it always made my eyebrows look really fluffy where as this brow powder makes them look amazing. The kit consists of a highlighting powder, the brow powder and a brow jel for when you've finished. I bought this product from boots and it cost me £5.99 so a really affordable price.

U.S- I don't know if Barry M is sold in the U.S so i'm not sure where you could buy this other that Amazon or Ebay.

UK- http://www.boots.com/en/Barry-M-Brow-Kit-4-5g_1450686/

This next item is nothing to do with your face ha! And that is my travel mug. I've not actually traveled with it other that up the stairs from the kitchen but I use it at night because I find it a lot safer for me in bed because I'm very likely to spill drinks, the only fault with this cup is that it takes me about 10 minutes to get the lid on! I bought my travel mug from Peacocks so I wont be able to link it for you as they don't sell there 'home' stuff online but it was £4 and I will like similar items.

U.S- http://www.aliexpress.com/item/New-fashion-Multi-color-Clay-Cute-cartoon-ECO-Personalise-Ceramic-Coffee-Tea-Water-Travel-Cups-Mugs/32278249727.html

UK- http://www.amazon.co.uk/Double-Walled-Travel-Ceramic-Silicone/dp/B005P8WDF2/ref=zg_bs_3544860031_20

My next favourite buy of this month is my Kindle Fire HD6. It has reduced the amount of storage taken up on my phone by loads. You may not know this but I have an Iphone 5C and I have the 8GB and because apple feel the need to fill the phone with loads of factory apps, I'm left with hardly any storage. I use my phone for taking most of my photos when I'm out and all my apps so I'm left with no storage for my music. I contemplated getting an Ipod but I've been wanting to read a lot more this year so the Kindle was the perfect option for me. I got mine on Amazon, obviously! and it cost me £99 and I have the 16GB.

U.S- http://www.amazon.com/Fire-HD-Display-Wi-Fi-GB/dp/B00KC6I06S/ref=sr_1_1?s=digital-text&ie=UTF8&qid=1424459926&sr=1-1&keywords=kindle+fire+hd6

UK-http://www.amazon.co.uk/Fire-HD-Display-Wi-Fi-Black/dp/B00KC6KMWI/ref=sr_1_1?s=digital-text&ie=UTF8&qid=1424459987&sr=1-1&keywords=kindle+fire+hd6

My final item is my Soap And Glory Mist You Madly Body Spray. I use this mostly before I go to bed just so that I'm getting into bed with that flirty scent on me. When I bought this, as I've said before, it wasn't the scent I thought it was going to be, I was hoping for the Soap And Glory Hand Food scent but I love the scent it has anyway and I really recommend it if you want to smell nice but perfume is too expensive or too strong for you. I bought mine from boots and it cost me £3.50

U.S-http://www.amazon.com/Soap-Glory-Madly-spray-250ml/dp/B001RMUN66/ref=sr_1_1?ie=UTF8&qid=1424460912&sr=8-1&keywords=soap+and+glory+mist+you+madly

UK-http://www.boots.com/en/Soap-Glory%C2%99-Mist-You-Madly%C2%99-Mini-Body-Spray-100ml_1114197/

So that's it for today guys and I'll see you in my next post.

Kira xx

Sanctuary Spa Peptide Replenish Night Cream!

Hi guys so today I'm going to be reviewing a product for you and the product I'm going to be reviewing for you today is the Sanctuary Spa Peptide Replenish Night Cream. So I hope you enjoy this type of post because I haven't done a post like this so far. Please leave comments on what you'd like to see more of and I'll be sure to take them in mind.

So I came across this product when I was having a browse around the shops a few weeks ago and coincidently the night before I had borrowed a night cream because my face was really hot and red after cleansing. I cannot remember the brand of the high end product I used but it was really good.

Anyway so when I saw this I immediately grabbed it off the shelf and threw it in the basket. I bought this product at only £5 so at that price I knew I had to get it and for the quality of the packaging you would think it was high end and a lot more expensive. 

When I got home I read the packaging of the product and saw that it had lavender oil in it. Now I'm allergic to lavender so obviously you see my issue and the product got put away at the back of the shelf. Until last night. Once again my face was really flushed after cleansing and I remembered I had this product, I knew I wasn't doing anything the next day so I took my chances and used the product, too my surprise I was fine.

I found this weird as usually even one touch of a lavender product brings me out in a rash and this didn't but anyway I was so happy with how the product performed, it cooled my skin right down and made my face feel amazing. I really recommend this product, although if you are allergic to lavender maybe don't be as stupid as me and try it because it could cause you a lot of irritation.

So that's it for today, make sure you keep an eye out for my next post. Make sure to comment as I love reading them and I also love following new blogs so make sure to comment your blog address aswell. You can also follow me on instagram @kirafelicialindxn

Kira xx

My Skin Care Routine!

Hi guys, so today I'm going to share with you how I keep my skin fresh and healthy with my skincare routine. This has nothing to do with clear skin, my skins not always spot free, in fact i have a massive spot on my chin right now, having clear skin most of the time is just a bonus of my routine I guess.

Since being pregnant my skin has been through a lot with all the hormone changes, so after having Phoebe I decided it was time to start taking care of my skin. I started off by using just one facial scrub before I went to bed. This was the Osiris Avise Apricot Exfoliating Facial Scrub and I'd use this after I'd took my make up off with most of the time a baby wipe! For this product I just wet my face with warm water and then message the product into my face. I then leave the product on my face for a minute and then rinse it off and pat dry with a towel. 

After a while of only doing this, I decided I needed something else as my face still felt  really unhealthy too me. So I started using a face mask every night. I don't use a specific brand, I usually just pick up whatever is on sale. I apply my face mask after using my scrub and leave it on for about half an hour while I watch TV or YouTube.

Around a month later I went shopping and decided to pick up some new products. Now instead of baby wipes which are unhealthy for taking make up off anyway. I use the Garnier Micellar Cleansing Water. I use this with cotton wool pads. I love this stuff so much because it only takes a few drops to take make up off my whole face.

I also picked up the Cien Aqua Rich Gentle Facial Wash. It says to use this product morning and night but I just use this in the morning to refresh my face before I apply my make up.

Ok guys so that's it for today's post. I'd just like to remind you all that everybody's skin is different. I've had my skin tested and I have dehydrated skin, from no fault but my own however this routine is what works best for me, although it might not work for you. It's all about trying out new products and seeing what works best for you. I do really recommend all these products and think they are amazing.

Kira xx

Valentines Essentials!

Hi guys so I'm sorry I didn't blog Monday , I was so tired after a long day but I'm home now and ready to share my Valentines day essentials. These products are things that I think would make your valentines that little bit better, whether in a relationship or not. I believe that just because your single does not mean you can't enjoy valentines day. People these days are under the impression that valentines day is about your boyfriend/girlfriend/significant other. Valentines day is about LOVE. You don't have to be in a relationship to love, there's family, friends, your dog if you love it. Valentines day is about spending time with others and these items will make your valentines day just that little bit better.

1.  This is the Barry M Shimmer Eye And Lip pencil. Applying this pencil to your lower water line will really widen your eyes and make you look awake and glowing no matter how sad and lonely you are feeling.  

2. This next product is the W7 In The Nude palette, this would do well if you wanted to look sexy and glamorous when going out whether it be with friends or that special someone. There are so many different eye looks you can do with this palette that would guarantee you another date or even more.

3. Red lipstick! this would be an obvious one for valentines day as it's something that most women associate with being sexy and looking good. This red lipstick is by Technic and it's in the colour rouge a levres. It doesn't really matter what brand it is as long as it gives good coverage and makes you look good.

4. Another lipstick! but this one isn't really for the colour but more for the fact that its long lasting which of course would be good if your looking to have a bit of a cheeky kiss or a naughty night. I have used this lipstick quite a lot and it lasts all day even through drinking, eating, kissing, etc. This product is called Maybeline Super Stay 24 Colour. You can get this product in a range of colours and I think this is one of my top picks for valentines day.

5. This is the Laval Eye Liner Pencil obviously to make yourself look sleek and sexy you can use which ever eyeliner you prefer but this is the one I use and I love it! I just think a winger eyeliner make you look so much more confident and like you know what your doing.

6. Another lip colour! This is the Rimmel Lasting Finish Colour Rush in the colour Viva Violet. I've worn this colour a lot and have had a lot of questions about it and even compliments and I'm sure that will be the same for you and what better day to have them, then on valentines day when your feeling low.

7. Candles, of course for your special night! These are Yankee Wax Melts. These are probably the cheapest of the Yankee range, pricing at £1.49. The key to candles on your special valentines night is choosing scents that your partner will like and that will relax them.

8. Of course you want to smell nice on valentines day, right? Remember my January favourites when I said I wanted a perfume/spray that smelt like the Soap And Glory Hand Food? Well, when I saw this, I thought yes! I've found the scent as a spray. I was wrong but it's still an amazing smell and as it says on the bottle 'a flirty floral fragrant body spray'.

Ok, so that's it for this post, I'm sorry I haven't been posting on time the last few days but that ends now, no more excuses, no more messing around.

So Lets Get Real...

Hi guys, so today I decided that we needed to get real for a bit. This wasn't the type of post I wanted to post on my blog but this is meant to be my personal stuff and my life so I decided that I had to share this. So like I said in my last post I have gone away for a bit, by this I meant I've left my home town, not for long, just a week or so. The purpose which most people think is not for a holiday but is for what I'm going to share with you now.


Since I was diagnosed with bipolar, schizophrenia and depression I have completely lost myself in my opinion. Hearing those words still really confuses me because I now realise that these problems have been there my whole life and I thought they were just normal things that everyone gets. This is so hard to explain so I'll just give you some examples. When I get upset no matter what it be that's hurt me, it can be physical or emotional. I don't just cry but I scream, I really cry hysterically until I cannot talk or anything. I honestly thought this was a normal thing, that I was just a dramatic person and I know now that I was so silly thinking that. Another thing is that I see things. I can be stood in the kitchen making a sandwich or something and I will see like an arm or a shadow of a person behind me when there is nothing there, if I see shadows that look scary to me I will get so scared to the point where I want to run away. I also thought this was just normal because this is something that I've dealt with all my life and all children get scared of shadows, don't they? So I just never told anyone. When I was very young, maybe 5? According to my mum I used to stand and talk to 'the man in the corner' as I called it and I know this all sounds crazy, especially this but too this day I know what he looks like, this imaginary person that I used to talk to when I was five is embedded in my head and that scares me. My last example is that when I was around 7 I started to hear voices when I was lying in bed at night and they would tell me things. Once again, as a 7 year old I didn't think anything of it, I would just shout at them to go away and they did.


So lets talk about the past year up to present day. I started to hear voices again but this time they wouldn't go away and of course this time they were telling me more serious things and I've never considered myself a very angry person but these things that were happening to me were making me want to destroy things and making me feel very uncomfortable around people. This was happening to the point where even if Alex just pocked me, I wanted to just hurt him until he couldn't touch me anymore. Just interrupting myself but I have never gave into myself and actually hurt him, I have always found it in me to stop myself from hurting anything or anyone. Obviously for a relationship this was very hard, a few weeks later I started to get very paranoid about him which once again really effected us, I got to the point where I was so paranoid about him cheating on me that I went through his phone, searching every app, every possible place he could of been talking to someone and unfortunately he was. This destroyed me for weeks obviously but it hurt me a lot more that it would a normal person. I would spend hours just lying in bed staring at nothing, I didn't want to talk to anyone, I couldn't even look at my own daughter without wanting to cry. Thankfully I finally got some closure when I spoke to this person and she explained what had gone one and it turned out I had worked myself up so much for nothing but because I had done this to him, it left us in a difficult place to this day. I don't really know what I'm doing or what he wants so this is why I'm taking this time away to try and clear my head and sort myself out because I want things with Alex to be how they were when we got together 2 years ago.


So guys I'm really sorry for this boring post but I just needed to share this, not only for myself but for people with similar issues, you are not alone.

                                                            Kira xx

Clothing + Home Haul!!

Hi guys, so today I'm going to be sharing with you a few items that I've  bought over the past week or so for myself. Please excuse the photos, the lighting in them is so bad and this is due to me having to take them in the dark. However I will link all items so you can check them out properly, so lets get started.

So the first item is this amazing pug cushion. I've seen so many bloggers and vloggers buying these lately from Primark however I don't go to Primark often as there isn't one near me. This cushion however is from Tesco, yes I said Tesco. I've never ever thought to look in Tesco for home stuff before but I was so happy with the stuff I got from there.

Price- £6
Link- http://www.tesco.com/direct/novelty-pug-face-cushion/737-6587.prd?pageLevel=&skuId=737-6587

This next item is as you can see from the photo almost empty. I know you probably thinking ' what?she said she only bought these items the other day.' Yes I did only buy this the other day, yes it is empty. So this candle has a very big favourite, It is also from Tesco. The reason it is empty so quickly is because it's in the scent Sweet Vanilla, which is Alex's favourite scent. Obviously for me this size candle isn't great but for most other people it would be great at an estimated 30 hour burn time.

Price- £2
Link- http://www.tesco.com/direct/tesco-sweet-vanilla-candle-in-a-jar/584-8446.prd?pageLevel=&skuId=584-8446

My next item is obviously a pair of shoes, this is something quite different for me. I'm more of a heel/boots person because I like feeling tall, it makes me feel better about myself.  However spring is coming and I wanted a cute pair of shoes that would be comfortable for those warm months. These little dollies are from Peacocks. I've never really shopped in Peacocks for myself and I was really Surprised at the quality considering everything is so cheap.

Price- £7
Link- Unfortunately I'm not able to get on the website to get the link but the name of the item is Shoe Bow Trim Basic Minni

This item is amazing, I never thought something of such a good price would be this good of a quality. This item was also from Peacocks. That's pretty much it haha.

Price- £8
Link- Viscose Print Vest

I forgot I had even ordered this top so when it came I was so happy because I had one more item than I'd remembered and that is a great feeling. This item is also from peacocks and it has a lovely satin feel to it and although I haven't worn it yet, I definitely think it's an item that can be dressed up and dressed down.

Price- £9.60
Link- Satin Printed Top

I've always had this theory that you shouldn't buy jewellery for yourself but I have changed my opinion completely and will be buying alooot more jewellery in the future, This little item is from Peacocks and I really love it.

Price- £3
Link- Simple Half Moon Necklace

This next item isn't very clear from the photos but it is a pair of cream/brown jeggings that zip at the side. These trousers are perfect! They are now one of my favourite items of clothing and I want more! I have a real issue with finding trousers and jeans that fit me as I have got hip but then I have very short skinny legs and a lot of the time I either end up with trousers too tight with baggy legs, to big round the waist and legs or perfect on the legs but I'm walking round pulling them up constantly. So putting these on and seeing and feeling what I did I felt amazing. Peacocks

Price- £12
Link- Side Zip Colour Jeggings

I'm not a very cardigan person, I'm much more of a jumper person but lately I've been feeling like jumpers cover up what you're actually wearing,  So I vow to wear more cardigans in spring so that I can show off my statement tops. This is from Peacocks.

Price- £10.00
Link- Feather Waffle Cardi

Okay guys so that's it for today. I'm actually going away for awhile. Don't worry, this will not effect you! Although my photo quality will not be as good as I will be using my phone. I've got some great post ideas cooking up and I can't wait to share them with you.
                                                                Bye for now. Kira xx